Thursday, June 16, 2011

Mother's Maple Nut Goodies

I was at CVS Pharmacy today and saw a bag Brach's Maple Nut Goodies hanging along a myriad of other candies. This particular one popped out to me because it was my Mother's favorite. I bought a bag and opened it in the car before driving away. I breathed in the distinctive aroma and thought of Mother, wishing I could share the candy with her the way I used to.

I don't understand it all, but those who do tell us smells can trigger memories. Chlorine reminds us of summertime at the pool, for example, and lilies remind us of church or a funeral. All I know for sure is that the smell of Maple Nut Goodies takes me back to a time when my mother was alive. We consumed many bags of the candies together, often just the two of us, not sharing with Dad or my sisters. I think Mother may have felt a little guilty doing it for various reasons, but not guilty enough to forego the pleasure of eating her favorite candy.

Mother and I had a special bond. She taught me to enjoy novels and music, and to sing and go to church. I am thankful to her for that. But one day she let go of me, and became a different person. We suspect Alzheimer's but didn't really find out for sure.

In time, she got to the point where she didn't recognize me, but she remembered the candy and knew I was the one who brought the Maple Nut Goodies to her. By then, she had trouble chewing the "Peanuts in crunchy toffee with maple coating", so she sucked on it until it was soft enough to eat.

I miss her. What a terrible illness it is when the person you love lives for a long time and, still, you don't get to say goodbye.


  1. Email from a friend:
    Sidney: This touched my heart -- thanks for sharing. It made me remember my Dad -- as we too never got to "physically" say goodbye as he died of a heart attack while I was gone. However, I know he knew how much I loved him and in some way I know he was there when I said my farewell. So, even tho not aware as we know it, I would be willing to bet your mother knew you were there. The spirit of God is a beautiful thing and I tend to believe that it speaks to us and others in ways we perhaps do not know. I remember your mother's smile -- it was so loving. Here's to "memories" while we have them. Enjoy your candy ! Love ya -- Sylvia

  2. Another email:

    This would make a great Mother's Day memo..... Quite touching. Peg

  3. Email:

    I had to laugh when I read this, though I'm just a reader.....and its weird, when I'm really into a know the kind you don't come up for air.......I can actually smell the smells described in the book. Sound crazy? But it happens!

    Thanks Bunches!
    Joy Hannabass

  4. Email:

    Interesting that you should mention this. Today's post on my blog was about the sense of smell! check it out here if you like: